MORE: Jake Gyllenhaal on How Heath Ledger’s Death Affected Him It was during the promotion of A Knight’s Tale that Ledger began to really struggle with fame. But Gibson and Emmerich saw something in the young actor and took a chance on him, giving him his first big role since breaking out in 10 Things I Hate About You. When he went to do a screen test for the 2000 Gibson starrer The Patriot, he flubbed his lines, then stopped the audition and apologized to Gibson and director Roland Emmerich for wasting their time. Ledger grew up idolizing the Mad Max actor, who was once the biggest Australian movie star. Here are some of the lesser-known elements of Ledger’s story which the film brings into focus: He was certain he had flubbed a major screen test with his idol, Mel Gibson. Through the memories of those closest to him, Ledger is resurrected as a devoted father, an actor whose constant striving was often fueled by self-doubt, a lover of music, chess and Burning Man, and a talent whose future seemed boundless. EST and will be available on iTunes and Amazon on May 23, aims to reveal the person behind not only the roles but also the ravenous tabloid coverage that followed his death. The documentary, which airs tonight on Spike at 10 p.m. Among the talking heads are childhood friends, his ex-girlfriend Naomi Watts, his longtime agent and friend Steve Alexander and directors including Ang Lee ( Brokeback Mountain) and Catherine Hardwicke ( Lords of Dogtown). Directed by Derik Murray and Adrian Buitenhuis, the film paints a portrait of the Australian actor through footage he took himself - he seemed always to have a camera in hand - and interviews with his family, friends and colleagues.